Change - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

It's a new year, it's my brand new start...

But that should not be the case.

It's a new me, the beginning of change, and it should  not have to be a new year resolution; awaiting for the final countdown into a new year.

Waiting for a new year to chance will be an inevitable endless cycle. A rollercoaster of emotions. An emotion based decision that will be altered with the next flood of emotions.

It's a brand new me. The beginning of change within. It just happens to be the start of a new year; and what a way to start this year. Marking a pivotal point in my life. My change has nothing to do with the hype of new year, but everything to do with what's within me. This new year however was the cause of me thinking about these things, with the evidence of past years gone. How history played off and how a world system are fooling itself with the same old thing. Year after year.

I am ready for change. A brand new heart, a clean and pure loving heart. A renewed mind giving birth to a sweet loving soul. A body that is not perfect but will be in shape; 'cause who has the right to decide what's perfect? Saying skinny or slim bodies are perfect and the rest are not.

But I will not fool myself in believing I can do this all by myself. Only the One who formed me and knows me completely can bring about change. So this year, I am giving myself to my Lord and Saviour. This day, I surrender my all to the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. The God who gave His only begotten son, Jesus (Yeshua) (fully God and fully man) to die on the cross and who rose again and are now seated at the right hand of God. I give myself over to the workings of the Holy Spirit; giving total control and full permission to do what needs to be done. Every aspect of my life is in the hands of the Almighty God. My ABBA Father.

Saviour or Saviour and Lord

The difference between a christian artist and an artist that are christian, lies in their relationship with God. Between Jesus being their Saviour and Jesus being their Saviour and Lord. Lordship demands total surrender to God's will. A life in all aspects, from doing your job to the intimate moments with your spouse, is to the glory of God. We are called to be a light to the world. Not in certain areas, but in all we do.

A new being. The keyword being "New". Something different from the old. Who are you trying to please? Yourself, mankind or God? Who's life force is in you? satan or GOD?

This question, this thought can be applied to all mankind and not just artists. We are in this world, but no longer off this world. I am not totally at that point yet; I am talking to myself as well. I haven't fully surrendered, as my life choices testifies about it. My inner secrets. My shameful moments. My unholy thoughts and desires.

Just because you made a choice, doesn't mean you have to stick to it. The beauty of choice is that you can made a different decision and turn away from previous decisions.

"I'm only human, but my humanity shouldn't be an excuse for my actions. In every situation there is always a choice, we just tend to not choose the option that is difficult, and say I didn't have a choice."  - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

I'll leave you with the following thought:
"Your field can only produce what you have sown. Do not expect a harvest of any other kind." - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

if i had - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

if i had a dream that fits both you and me, would it be a dream that are interesting
if i had a vision that would be pleasing, would you be sharing in it or leave it up to me
if i had a mil will i be fitting into your world, or do i just have to be me to be part of the pieces that make up your world
if i had your heart, would it be mine for keeps or until the next guy comes around
if i had the right words, would it melt your heart and draw you closer to me
if i do all the right things, would it be more than enough
if i had nothing, would you still love me
if i had to let you know, would you prefer in word or deed or both

but this is all ifs and i haven't even touch on maybe's, but this shouldn't be the case
so let me start with word and follow with deed
so that i will no longer have to ask the "if i had" questions
and always live with the "i had" statements
living a life that will have no more regrets

How my blog began - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

Below is a Facebook status that I posted on 5 December 2011. A friend commented on it suggesting that I should start a blog. Thanx Mr Farmer...

if you seek and you haven't found, is it because you were declined or just that you haven't found it yet, how will you know and what will you do, will you keep on seeking or will you close that door, will that inner-voice be ignored, what more will there be in store, living in agony by dying to be more, seek and seek some more, because you hold on and still believe does it make you weak, tell me how do you measure strength, in one's failures or in accomplishments, do you seek man's approval and compliments just to feel human, to feel alive and to walk through another day... - JePro

i am back - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

i cannot stop, i will write 'til i drop, fall i may, but on my two legs i will remain, after the ground i claim elevates me to my feet, i don't need a mic to speak, i will shout it from the rooftops if i must, but my words you shall hear, conquer all my fears to get it all out, shy little young me no longer will be, i am free, chains fallen free as a bird, high on life, let me paint you a picture with my words, nevermind my grammar, you understand what i say then that's good enough, i'm a poet so i have the license to murder words, might be painful to hear even harder to read, but this is me, and i will continue this art painting the picture so that everyone can see, this warrior arising the enemy fleeing, but it's not the power of me, never have been, it's the power within, the Lord that chose me, and decided to make me his... my name is R 2 the i a a and n but you can call me JePro... i am here to stay, welcome to me, this poet has something to say... i am back

the pen missed me - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

i haven't picked up the pen for a while,
must be 'coz i haven't smiled in a while,
poetry is my language and voice in written form,
at times an escape from the storm.

i haven't written a poem for quite some time,
most of my latest works over the years had to rhyme,
lyrically flowing over one's lips,
being very careful not to trip.

rhythm and poetry an art form known as rap,
the type of music you won't play if you want to take a nap,
with an upbeat that will make you move you feet,
how powerful is a few words written on a piece of sheet.

this poem i wrote over a couple days,
where i normally would finish a piece the very same day,
must be that inspiration kicked in and then left,
but now i'm finishing off from where i've left.

let me rather conclude,
put another line here as a substitute,
replacing what actually want to say,
and share my heart on another distant day.

time to speak out - Riaan 'JePro' Davids

things i haven't said, i am saying now, things laying on my heart is about to come out, dreams that was so far hidden will be revealed, all the hurt and pain will be exposed and music about all of this will be composed, a poet's journey and his journal on the streets for all to see, no more hiding behind the scenes, the naked truth like ripping off the sheets, laying there vulnerable, grown man crying there's nothing honourable, a lie that comes from generation to generation, a real man don't cry, don't show his emotions

all these years the pen was my voice, the ink my emotions, putting what i feel on paper, hoping anyone can relate, poetry was always my platform, my stage, but at times the mic was taken out off my hands, and i've been silent and none knew what i really feel, walking around with a fake smile, drowning my sorrows in laughter

but it's time to speak out, taking back my voice, speaking the way i know, in written form

this is me coming back on the scene, expect more written word like these...